The Used

I was feeling apathetic
& I hate to use this word
because i believe only mediocre musicians
& the teenage boys listening to them use this word
as they try to appear "deep"
as if they've become so accustomed to pain
& the misfortunes life brings that
they've become impervious to it

but apathetic is the best word in my limited vocabulary
that i could find to describe the mood i was in
it was the kind of mood where nothing could satisfy my discomfort
not my favorite TV show
not my favorite music that normally when played at the right voltage could get me going from even the deepest slumber
nothing
not his bed that i normally flop around in trying to appear cute
not my friends house & their moms cooking
driving aimlessly won't help
I've hit all these roads before
nothing but traffic lights & speed limits
& both contradict each other
all my favorite hang outs have become redundant, over used.
this town I'm living in, this life I'm leading just isn't satisfying anymore
but i don't go anywhere
not because I'm afraid
because i can't think of a place that could cure me of this
not much else lies ahead
& given enough time everywhere starts to feel the same
at least this is a discomfort I'm familiar with